Being in LOVE

The word LOVE itself is a very big word of all. This is the word which doesn’t n leave anybody. Whether it be a rich man or poor, a healthy man or a sick man, literate or illiterate, we all have been loved by someone, sometime in our life. Love doesn’t have any shape or language, it has its own language, which we can see with the time by our closed ones. It’s the only thing which makes our world so beautiful. The living including man and animal are all made up of love. Without love the world would not have been existed. Or it may not be seemed as it is today.

We all had been in love in our life. Whether it is love of mother, father, brother, sister, friends and relatives. We all have been loved by someone. In fact all our life, we are being in some kind of love. And we love being in love, of course we don’t want anyone to hate us. We are all surrounded by love. The special kind of love which we don’t feel.  And we only feel the love when someone we love leaves us. Then we feel the pain of love.

LOVE don’t see age of a person and happen. We can love at any age to any age of person. But yes we all need that special type of love where can talk  to them for a long time, hangout with them, have a long walk with them, holding hands together n watch the sunset, watch movies together, share one drink, looking at each other and sharing emotions. And their smile is the biggest thing for which we can give our life away. We can do anything just to see a smile on the face of the person we love. Though we have many problems in our life, after seeing the person we love, we forget all that thing. All we know is that to smile with that person and enjoy that very moment. Bcoz these are the moments which is very precious and we wanna make these time special.

And coming to me……. Yes I am in love and I have been in love for I don’t know how many years.  Ha ha ha ha ha ha actually I know…… but leave it….. its many years. And I love being in love. Its been so many years but I still fell that it happened just tomorrow. The memory is so fresh with me. I am in love with the same person for these years. No one can take her place….. no one. Yeah, she is that special to me. I die hardly love her. I know its insane right ? to love a person for so many years and that person doesn’t love u back. I mean she had no idea how much I love her and respect her. Yeah u must be thinking that I am mad being like this. I mean in today’s world who stick around for years and that too for only one person’s love. But its ok with me, m enjoying my life being in love. Yeah sometime I feel sad…. Very sad for not having her with me. And that she doesn’t love me back.  Ha ha ha now u must be thinking I am really gone mad. I mean who loves a girl who doesn’t love u at all and that too for these many years. You got to be kidding me. But hey friend I am not kidding, I am damn serious. I loved her then and I love her now and will love her till the end.

There is something very very special about her. Her smile is the sweetest thing you will ever see. The best of all. For her smile I can lay down my life. Her eyes are so beautiful….i just want to look at them for hours and hours. I cant explain about her, she is so mesmerizing. I love the way she talks, her voice is so nice. If there anything I want from my whole heart, that would be her happiness. I want her to be happy all her life. No sorrow, no pain for her. Just want her to smile. Her beautiful smile be remain for the rest for her life. And she gets the best in life, more than the best. She deserves all the happiness of this world.

I want to sit next to her and keep watching her for long time, I want to sit in front of her n look into eyes, to share a soft drink with her, to ride with her on my bike, to have a long walk with her holding her hands, to see the sunset with her, to go for a movie with her, to laugh with her on silly jokes, to go on to a bridge with n speak out loud that I love her so much, to have ice cream with her, I want to solve her problems if she had any, to share my feelings for her, to exchange my emotions with her. And I know that these things are never gonna happen…… never ever….not in this lifetime of mine. But I still have a hope of 0.0000001 % that is equal to never gonna happen. And this is what makes me sad. But still I am smiling, the time I had with her was the best time of my life, never felt so good with the heart. I don’t know if she would ever think of me. I had only told her once that I love her, and from that day onwards everything changed between us. We are not talking, no text, no mails, nothing. Just a casual msg in an interval of like 3-4 months of time. And that too when I gather all my courage n write her with my trembling hands. I don’t know what happen to me,  when I think of her my heart beats fast, when I write a msg to her my hands shake. Its not that I am afraid of her, its just I am scared that she might just see my name and delete the msgs without reading it. I know its not like that…..but she might hate me, or she don’t like me at all, she would be thinking that I am not a good guy for her, or m a very bad guy, or I don’t deserve her. Nah…. I don’t think she think of me like that. I know she also love me deep inside her but will never express it to me.

Well I don’t want to meet her again in my life, you know why coz meeting a person who don’t love you as you do, is very painful. Even if you have a sweet chat, deep inside it kills you. And asking a question why not me ?? what’s the problem with me ?? but again it’s a phase which I want and in another phase I want more than the first one. I pray to god that let me see her once again, let me see her smile for one more time, let me see her happy.  I want to express myself to her, want her to know that I love her, how I feel about her. I know even after doing all this she will not agree with me. But in this situation I just only hope. Hope everything would go right.

I want her to be happy all her life. I will never ever forget her smiling face. Her smile is the thing I keep thinking of and which make me fall in love with her again and again. So its for you my dear if ever you read this blog I just want to say that I love you from the bottom of my heart. I will cherish every moment we had together. Just keep smiling. Your smile is the next big wonder of this world.

So my dear have a great life, take care n keep smiling. And remember one thing I LOVE YOU.

Here’s a song for you ….. tujhe dekha to ye jana sanam, pyar hota hai deewana sanam, ab yahan se kahan jayein hum teri bahon mein mar jayein hum.

P.S :-  Not just the sunset my dear, I would also like to see the sunrises with you for the rest of my life.