Chandipur Beach

It was last year’s summers when for the first time I visited the chandipur beach. Its an amazing place to visit. It is situated at the north eastern part of Orissa in balasore district. It is a famous place in india. Coz it’s the only place where india test its all missile.  An awesome place a must visit. And its beach has a very nice n unique specialty.

I was at that time working in a national based NGO. And we had lots of work. After the hard working for 6 days a week we all means me and my colleagues get tired. So one day we decided to go to chandipur beach. It was hardly 60 km away from our place udala. So it was 2 hours of journey. So on a Sunday we all got ready and we started our journey by our bike to the chandipur. From udala to chandipur via remuna and balasore.  We have to drive through a river side which is great to see. The road was at the edge of the river like if the water from the river exceeds the water will come to the road. The scene was so beautiful. Then in between a forest was there and which was famous for bear and elephant attacking. And we all were scared by seeing that jungle, it was so dense. Then we came to remuna the highway cross through it. Loved to watch such a busy route. And then we came to balasore, what a beautiful town it is. We ride there for some time and then we headed towards the chandipur which was 15 km away from there. And the road was so nice, smooth the bike was going like its on the butter. So within 30 minutes we were there at the chandipur beach.

I and debu sir reached the beach, it was like 4 pm and tapan sir was a bit late, he was to see us there on the beach  at 6 pm. And we were there on the beach already so what to do now. We had some soft drinks, some chana n mudhi. And then we decided to go on to the sea. Well it’s the right time to reveal about the unique specialty of the beach. So the specialty is….. at the day time the water of the sea go backwards upto 5 kms and at evening at 8 pm the water of the sea comes to the cost. And it happens daily. Another specialty of its is here there is no big tides were there. Only smooth sea water will come and go. You will just enjoy the beauty of nature. It was the first time I was watching such a geographical occurring. In contrast to puri beach where water is near the cost, not so deep but still the big big tides striking the cost, here at chandipur no water from 12 to 6 pm on the cost. Then from 6pm to 8pm the water will start to return. And slowly slowly  it touches the cost.

So we decided to go to the sea. And the water was very far away. I told sir that we will touch the sea water n come.  Then I n debu sir started walking in the sea towards the water which was almost invisible from cost. After walking some distance my feet started to pain. The sand of the beach was so tight feeling like I was walking on the rock and I was bare foot. I have a maza bottle on my back pocket and mudhi in my hand. And I started walking towards the water. From the top of the cost it was looking that yes the water is close we can manage, but when we came down to the cost and started walking It seems quite difficult as my leg was not so good n had to walk so much of distance. The breeze was so high. The air was striking on my face, my hairs were all scattered the hairstyle was gone bad. After 30 minutes of walk we get to the water finally and the water was returning to the cost slowly. We had taken some pics there. And enjoyed I sang song there and shouted very loudly at the sea, drank all the mango juice and thrown it to the sea. And we came back as the sea water was coming too fast it had come to my knees height.

Along the smooth breeze at the middle of the sea water I felt the happiness of witnessing such a great thing, I looked back and the shore was so far away from us like 3-4 kms away. The weather was so romantic. For a moment I look down and smile. The reason was at that time I remember the one I love, thought if she would be here with me it would be so great, I would had my hands on her hands and in this awesomic place on this amazing weather we were walking, looking at each other and sharing a smile. Thinking about her I was returning with my colleague. While the shore was about 500 mts away I suddenly heard a voice of a girl, she was talking on her cell phone and was shouting I LOVE YOU…. She said this 4 times… and that too so loudly I was about 80-90 mts away from her but still was able to hear her voice so clearly. When I first get that voice of saying I love you I look out for the person who was saying it and then a very pleasant smile came to my face, I saw the girl and smiled. I was feeling so loved at that time. I was happy to see that girl that she is in love and expressing her love towards her beloved loudly. For a while I was jealous also, thought why it is not happening with me. But then again love is the gift of god which is not achievable. At least god has not gifted me by the word LOVE.

So after  sometime we were at the shore and put on our shoes and tapan sir also had come at that time we had little chat there, all were checking out the girls, specially me  ha ha ha ha ha. Looking at them constantly and smiling like crazy, doing fultoo masti. Then tapan sir asked to me about the tide. I told him that water here is this silent and here there is no tide. He was like fuck this place. No tide here, what is a beach without the high tides, he told us to get out of that place. But then we sat at a bench there near to the shore eating some ice cream. It was about to 7pm and we were feeling hungry. And from there we went to the river side town of chandipur to see the place. And when we enter the place it smelled like fish. All there was fish fish n fish. You will find only fish there and yes of course the ice factory big big bar of ice. Seen some big fishing boats also, I told tapan sir I wanna go in the fishing boats and watch live fishing. Had a great time that day. At 8 pm came back to the beach had dinner and headed back towards our centre.  

That was an awesome journey and experience. Can never forget the day. One of the best day of my life.

Being in LOVE

The word LOVE itself is a very big word of all. This is the word which doesn’t n leave anybody. Whether it be a rich man or poor, a healthy man or a sick man, literate or illiterate, we all have been loved by someone, sometime in our life. Love doesn’t have any shape or language, it has its own language, which we can see with the time by our closed ones. It’s the only thing which makes our world so beautiful. The living including man and animal are all made up of love. Without love the world would not have been existed. Or it may not be seemed as it is today.

We all had been in love in our life. Whether it is love of mother, father, brother, sister, friends and relatives. We all have been loved by someone. In fact all our life, we are being in some kind of love. And we love being in love, of course we don’t want anyone to hate us. We are all surrounded by love. The special kind of love which we don’t feel.  And we only feel the love when someone we love leaves us. Then we feel the pain of love.

LOVE don’t see age of a person and happen. We can love at any age to any age of person. But yes we all need that special type of love where can talk  to them for a long time, hangout with them, have a long walk with them, holding hands together n watch the sunset, watch movies together, share one drink, looking at each other and sharing emotions. And their smile is the biggest thing for which we can give our life away. We can do anything just to see a smile on the face of the person we love. Though we have many problems in our life, after seeing the person we love, we forget all that thing. All we know is that to smile with that person and enjoy that very moment. Bcoz these are the moments which is very precious and we wanna make these time special.

And coming to me……. Yes I am in love and I have been in love for I don’t know how many years.  Ha ha ha ha ha ha actually I know…… but leave it….. its many years. And I love being in love. Its been so many years but I still fell that it happened just tomorrow. The memory is so fresh with me. I am in love with the same person for these years. No one can take her place….. no one. Yeah, she is that special to me. I die hardly love her. I know its insane right ? to love a person for so many years and that person doesn’t love u back. I mean she had no idea how much I love her and respect her. Yeah u must be thinking that I am mad being like this. I mean in today’s world who stick around for years and that too for only one person’s love. But its ok with me, m enjoying my life being in love. Yeah sometime I feel sad…. Very sad for not having her with me. And that she doesn’t love me back.  Ha ha ha now u must be thinking I am really gone mad. I mean who loves a girl who doesn’t love u at all and that too for these many years. You got to be kidding me. But hey friend I am not kidding, I am damn serious. I loved her then and I love her now and will love her till the end.

There is something very very special about her. Her smile is the sweetest thing you will ever see. The best of all. For her smile I can lay down my life. Her eyes are so beautiful….i just want to look at them for hours and hours. I cant explain about her, she is so mesmerizing. I love the way she talks, her voice is so nice. If there anything I want from my whole heart, that would be her happiness. I want her to be happy all her life. No sorrow, no pain for her. Just want her to smile. Her beautiful smile be remain for the rest for her life. And she gets the best in life, more than the best. She deserves all the happiness of this world.

I want to sit next to her and keep watching her for long time, I want to sit in front of her n look into eyes, to share a soft drink with her, to ride with her on my bike, to have a long walk with her holding her hands, to see the sunset with her, to go for a movie with her, to laugh with her on silly jokes, to go on to a bridge with n speak out loud that I love her so much, to have ice cream with her, I want to solve her problems if she had any, to share my feelings for her, to exchange my emotions with her. And I know that these things are never gonna happen…… never ever….not in this lifetime of mine. But I still have a hope of 0.0000001 % that is equal to never gonna happen. And this is what makes me sad. But still I am smiling, the time I had with her was the best time of my life, never felt so good with the heart. I don’t know if she would ever think of me. I had only told her once that I love her, and from that day onwards everything changed between us. We are not talking, no text, no mails, nothing. Just a casual msg in an interval of like 3-4 months of time. And that too when I gather all my courage n write her with my trembling hands. I don’t know what happen to me,  when I think of her my heart beats fast, when I write a msg to her my hands shake. Its not that I am afraid of her, its just I am scared that she might just see my name and delete the msgs without reading it. I know its not like that…..but she might hate me, or she don’t like me at all, she would be thinking that I am not a good guy for her, or m a very bad guy, or I don’t deserve her. Nah…. I don’t think she think of me like that. I know she also love me deep inside her but will never express it to me.

Well I don’t want to meet her again in my life, you know why coz meeting a person who don’t love you as you do, is very painful. Even if you have a sweet chat, deep inside it kills you. And asking a question why not me ?? what’s the problem with me ?? but again it’s a phase which I want and in another phase I want more than the first one. I pray to god that let me see her once again, let me see her smile for one more time, let me see her happy.  I want to express myself to her, want her to know that I love her, how I feel about her. I know even after doing all this she will not agree with me. But in this situation I just only hope. Hope everything would go right.

I want her to be happy all her life. I will never ever forget her smiling face. Her smile is the thing I keep thinking of and which make me fall in love with her again and again. So its for you my dear if ever you read this blog I just want to say that I love you from the bottom of my heart. I will cherish every moment we had together. Just keep smiling. Your smile is the next big wonder of this world.

So my dear have a great life, take care n keep smiling. And remember one thing I LOVE YOU.

Here’s a song for you ….. tujhe dekha to ye jana sanam, pyar hota hai deewana sanam, ab yahan se kahan jayein hum teri bahon mein mar jayein hum.

P.S :-  Not just the sunset my dear, I would also like to see the sunrises with you for the rest of my life.