eye test

It  happened some days ago. I had gone to the eye hospital. And there what had happened with me. This is the story about that.

I had got ready and was to go to the eye hospital when my mom came from hospital, she was to take me to the eye hospital as she is the nursing sister of the hospital. But another thing I had heard about that eye specialist doctor that he is very corrupt. He always ask the patients to come to his clinic for he can take extra money from them. I was in full mood to take panga with him.

My mom came from hospital and that time was not feeling well also, then I ask mother to go and see whether there is many people or not then mom went and came quick and said that no one is there. Then I had gone there by bike with my bro. the pain was full in my thigh. But any how I reached the eye hospital . it was very much near to our house yaar, well I recides in the hospital campus itself that’s why.

So I reached there and there my mom called the opthalmic assistant to check my eyes. Then he came to me and checked my eyes very nicely. i was pleased by his test. He was a nice person. And the result was my eyes got -5 power. I was like what ?? this much. Then we had waited for  sometime and then came the doctor. He asked what happen mom said I m his son came here for the eye test. Then suddenly he said why don’t u send him to the clinic. There I can check him clearly. I have the computer there to test, why to test here by the hit and trial method, I was like the bastard has shown his real  colours to get some money he is making me  to come  his clinic. I was about to say no take the test here only but my mom agreed with that doctor. My bholi si mom aasani se uske jaal mein phas gayi.

 She asked me to go to his clinic, but I refused, then she said go beta or else kya sochenge wo sir, I said kya sochega wo kamina, haramkhor, saala clinic mein paise lega bol ke bula raha hai whan pe kya test karega wo, saale ka bike phod dunga bomb se. my mom request me to go so I had to go his clinic. And when I went there, I had waited for sometime and then he had checked my eyes but he was doing it in a hurry coz as much he can see the patient he can make more money. Bastard.

And one more thing he had asked me to take my report of my disease to him and he wanted to see it. What he will do with my report, kamina khali dikhane ke liye report manga tha. Jab maine dikhaya to pehla hi medicine ka naam padh nai paya harami. Aur jab maine padh ke sunaya to he asked whats this, I was like abe kutte doctor tu hai ki main. Saala medicine padh ke bhi pata nai chalta ki kya hai.bloody doctor.i said sir this is a steroids. Ok ok he said, mann kar raha tha ki wahin pe use laga dalun ek. Sale ne yahin pe wohi hit and trial method mein mera test kiya computer pe check karne ke baad.

 Aur mere bhai ko pas bula ke bolta hai ki dekho meri majburi hai maine ye machine loan pe liya hai to machine ka charge kat de raha hun. Waise to main sab se 120 rupes leta hun par tum se 70 lunga ok. My god yaar itna kamina doctor maine kabhi nai dekha khali paisa paisa ho ke mar raha hai. But koi baat nai yaar maa ne kaha tha to unke liye sab sah gaya nai to kamine ko to main.....................

 Chalo koi bat nai waise bhi meri baddua uske saath hamesha rahegi.

Yaar maine bahut se corrupt doctor ke bare mein suna tha par ye to saala unka baap nikla yaar, ye doctor har kisi ko bulata hai apne cl;inic, choti si choti  baat ke liye bhi apne clinic bula leta hai taki kuck paisa kama sake.  Sala govt doctor hai kuch kaam nai hai ghar pe apni wife ke saath aish karta ki nai, bachoo ko padhata ki nai. Lekinjanab ko to logon ke khoon pasine ki kamai choosni hai.

I hate this type of persons yaar jo dusron se pehle apna fayada dekhte hain.

feeling the death

This is a very small story of mine. Its about a day when I got senseless. And my mom and dad got 

very nervous.

So it was my early days of suffering from arthritis. And that time in my feet, my both thumbs were injured, and a thick skin was peeping out. So I wake up late as usual at 9am. And had got freshed. Taken breakfast and then I came to the back door of our house to sit and feel the heat of sun.

So there I was sitting and watching the butterflies  and suddenly I noticed that my right leg thumb had a skin coming out. So I decided to take it out from there, so that  a new skin can come from there. So I take my leg to my chair and I bend towards my leg and was touching my thumb, it was paining a bit. But then  also I slowly touched the thumb and started to take out that thick skin. It was a large skin. And it was swollen and it was dark red in colour.  Father was right behind me and at that time my mom also had come from duty to see me.

 So when I was taking out that skin it was taking too much of time coz I was a bit afraid also. So slowly I was taking out the skin but instead of taking small pieces of skin I was taking out a big piece of skin. I had seen the inner part opf that skin it was red and white and it was not at all good in looks and so at that time my head started spinning. I asked my father to bring some water for me. He had gone and brought  the water at that time my mom come infront of me and was watching my wound. And that time my head was spinning like a top. And my eyes were automatically closed and I cant hear anything.

 My mom suddenly looked into my eyes and asked my father to take me to the bed suddenly. Because she had already seen my eyes closing. Then suddenly my father and mom took me out of the chair and were taking me to the bed but mom asked to father to lie me down there only. And that time I was like seeing nothing, hearing nothing and my head still spinning and I was feeling nothing. For a second I thaught I m gone. M I alive or not. No yaar not so fast. Oh no.

But when I was lied down there after some seconds I wake up. My eyes were open. And I asked what happen ?. then my mom said that I was senseless at that time, ohhhh must be of that wound in my right leg thumb. I hate wound. Specially full of blood.that was a horrible experience. I was like had feel the death. I had taste the death what it is. But m very thankful to god that m alive.

 Yaar agar main chala jaunga to tum logon ko pareshan kaun karega hmmmm ???  ha ha ha ha.

a nightmare

Well now this is an amazing experience which I cant forget.  Its about my nights. Its about my sleeping. Hmmm everyone, after having dinner wants to sleep and so do I, but in this case there is a twist.

So  here is what happened with me in these nights. The days are as usual normal. Watching movies in the computer, roaming  from facebook to orkut. And at evening watching tv a bit and then having dinner. And after that I lie on my bed. And now starts the cramping and pain. When I lie on my bed at night I cant sleep properly. My whole body was in pain. My back from left to right and my waist and my both knees and thigh also. These all body parts were in pain. I don’t think of pain thinking that if I will dnt think about this i can sleep. But I was wrong. The cramping was so much that I cant even move also. And the pain was so severe that for a second I stopped breathing.

 My mom massage me all over my back to feel me some comfort. And yes I feel some comfort and I sleep also but again within some minutes I wake up and I make noises. the pain was like killing me. I was feeling like I m  in hell. every second  of the clock was like a year for me, and the pain was like in its extreme position, for a second I feel to cut my legs. Every  15-20 minutes  I wake up and my mom used to massage me. I was waiting when will sun rise. And this goes on till morning. I cant sleep properly till morning. And at 5 am I wake up and do my yoga. And after that still have pain in my body but at that time I feel very sleepy, so my eyes close automatically and I sleep and again wake up at 8 or 9 am. Was feeling better but still have pain in my body.

So this is how my nights were. Cant sleep coz of pain and sleep at morning. Very painful this is. I don’t want anyone to suffer from this.

what they think

Hmmmmm so friends you must be thinking what would be in this blog, another story of mine ??. mmmmm let me tell you no. in this blog there is no story of mine. This blog is about my well wishers what they think about my disease, my suffering. This is about what I think, they think about me.

So lets start with my parents, with my mom,  hmmm I think, mom think that I will be fine soon. But still she feel guilty that if we had gone to a good doctor I would have been fine earlier. But its ok I will be fine soon. And also she always tell me that god is loving me more than others and that’s why he is giving me pain, and I say oh ho ho ho  is that so ?? ab itna bhi pyar na karein ki main unke paas hi chala jaun. Ha ha ha ha. Sometimes I get angry on my mom bcoz of my pain, and unhe suicide karne ki dhamki bhi de deta hun, then mom starts crying that I m saying like dis. To be honest and true kabhi kabhi marne ka bhi mann karta hai. But don’t worry mom I will never do this type of cheap work. My mom give me strength and she assure me that I will be ok. And yes I know I will be fine one day. Love u mom.

My dad thinks that I will be fine but it will take long time to be fit. Because in ayurveda medicine it works very slowly. He had also tried many things for me, I had control my diet. He had gone many places to the doctors, to the vaidyas and to every one he had heard from his friends that go to there he is giving medicine that cure this disease. He had gone every possible way to heal me quick. But its ok dad no problem. I will get well soon.

My dadi cried cried and cried when I make a call to her. She says what had happen to you my dear. Take care of yourself. I assure my dadi  that I will be fit soon and wiil come to visit her.  In ask her to pray for me. She cares for me more and she is very worried about me. Don’t worry dadi i will be ok.

My chachu, had also cried once when I was in vizag. He loves me a lot. When we were kids and we used to go out with chachu he used to take money from us, he used to say paise laye ho ki nai nai to nai khilaunga, hmmm mere hi paise se mujhe hi khilate the chachu, ha ha ha ha. I love that thing, now also he does the same thing with me. He cares for me a lot. He always try to make us strong. He always call me and ask about my health. Well chachu I will be fine soon.love u.

Monalisa, now this girl is amazing, I love her more then any one I love in this world. and she also love me. She care for me. When I all her always ask about my health. And when I say that m not fit yaar. Then she reply don’t worry aap jaldi thik ho jaoge, m praying for you. Aur thik hjote hi yahan mere paas chale aana, aapko dekhne ka mann kar raha hai. Hmmmmm thik hote hi sabse pehle tere paas jaunga dear. Love u. oh by the way I forgot to introduce her, she is my cousin sister.

Mamaji is very worried about me, he had made some herbal medicine and given me. He had visited me twice. he also care about me. he always pray for me. He had told me not to worry, and have faith in god. Everything will be alright.

And here’s what some of my friend had given advice and ideas.

Lincon -  make urself busy yaar, aur pain ke bare mein bilkul bhi mat sochna nai to jyada pain hoga. Once we had planned a party, and I was also interested in that,  to linc ke ghar ke upar wala room khali tha, to I said ok no problem  main sidhi chad sakta hun. To he said bas bas rehne do, tum kuch jyada hi over confidence ho jate ho. Tumhe tum par confidence hoga par hamein confidence nai hai tum par kit um seedhi chad sakte ho.bas tum jaldi se thik ho jao to kahin planning kar ke ghumne jayenge.

Happy(bala) – are yaar  facebook and orkut kisliye hai. Are wahan pe ladki patao yaar. Mast mast ladki sab hain wahan pe, tum kaho to school ya college ka naam bataun ?? and jaldi thik ho jao yaar, tum nai ho to achha nai lag raha hai. Hamara ghumne jane ka plan pichle ek saal se ruka hua hai.so get well soon.

Guddu – kya yaar tu to mujhe bhul hi gaya, thik hua ki nai ? to main bolta hun meri baat chod tu kaisa hai be, kab aayega yahan, hmm jaldi hi jaunga tum pehle thik ho jao aur hum sab mil ke ghumne jayenge.

Did you notice something common in these three friends, kamino ko meri halat se jyada ghumne jane ki fikar jyada hai. Ha ha ha ha. Well ghumne jane ka plan top mera bhi hai yaar, don’t wory main thik hote hi kahin ghumne jayenge.

Bablu – this boy, whenever call me asks how m I ? and then give me a website name and asked me to search it for the job. He is a nice guy. He had also a problem in his leg. Hope he get ride of that pain.

Brij – tu jinda hai ki mar gaya hai be ? this is what he used to say when he call. Kabhi to mujhe call karta nai tu. So wat yaar I msg u na. I reply. So hw is your health. Are alok when u will be ok yaar m dying to meet you yaar. Aur pata hai yahan pe maine do ladkiyan pata li hain. I said oh good wow great.agar sambhal nai payega to ek do merer taraf bhi bhej dena be.

Madan – jaldi thik ho jao yaar, klitna late lagate ho late hone mein. Tumhe bahut miss kar raha hun, wo rat ke 2 baje coffee pina aur wo tumhara mujhe lecture dena bahut mis kar raha hun.missing u a lot.

Rajan – kab thik hoge yaar tum, missing u so much. U r the main leader of our group.

Veronica – babu,  tu kab thik hoga yaar, tu msg bhi nai kar raha hai, fb pe bhi nai hai, tere bina wahan pe mann nai lagta. M praying for your good health. Jyada tension mat lena tu jaldi thik ho jayega.

Baby – bhaiya, missing u a lot, aap kab thik hoge. Aur thik hote hi aap mujhse milne aana. Aur hum bahut masti karenge.

Sweta – partner jaldi thik ho jao yaar. Aur plz milne aana hamein.

Shradha – hiii bro jaldi se thik hoke mujhse milne aana. Aur bhul mat jana hamein.

Pooja – tu kab thik hoga re alok, jaldi thik ho ja. Tujhse ladai karne ka mann kar raha hai.

And last but not the least my bro, he thinks jara hat ke from the others. when he got the news that m admitting in the hospital in vizag, he broke out with tears, I know he love me. And now a days he is watching me in pain and he thinks that I will die of this pain. I can not survive this disease. I will die this way. Suffering from pain. He says, I m not willing to get well. And this will kill u.

Kabhi kabhi to mujhe bhi aisa lagne lagta hai ki I will die of this pain, but still there is  a ray of hope. Lets see what happens.