Unknown Quality

We all have a special quality of living, talking and laughing which makes others feel good about us. But we didn’t realize about it till someone convey or express it to our self. And till then we have no idea that we have some qualities like that or something. What we actually do is just like a daily job, we didn’t even realize what we are capable of. For example I used to sing songs, I am not a good singer but I sing songs and then one day someone listen my song and come to me and said you are a very good singer, you should try singing as your career. Another example is I like to write blogs, I just write my own stories the experience which I have gain from my life, and gradually my friends read my blogs and they appreciate my writings, they said that I am good at writing and I should do something with my writing.

So this is what I am talking about the quality which we have but we don’t see it as quality. I have a friend who used to feed poor outside the temple, every week she go to the temple and she use to feed the poor people begging outside the temple. She made something by her own, pray to god and after finishing the prayer at the temple she came outside and feed the poor. By seeing her activity I told her she is very kind and this is what makes her so special. I ask her to open a catering service for the poor people. As she loves to feed them, and now she is going to start her own catering service.

There’s a friend of mine he always remains calm and quiet at every situation. He is very sophisticated, he never get nervous or worry in all kind of pressure situations. Once his girlfriend and he had a fight and the girl was not talking to him, then he initiated the talk and the problem solved. The word anger is very far from this man. He never I mean I haven’t seen him in anger. Once his office was in a fire situation and the office was surrounded by fire, the fire fighters were like 30 minutes away, and he was out safely but one of his co-worker was stuck inside the office. He then decided to take his colleague out of the office but the fire was so furious at the time, he asked me to go with him and I was like so much terrified but then also he was calm, he was not afraid of the fire he just want to take out his colleague from the fire, he brought a fire extinguisher from the nearby office and we went inside the office he hold the extinguisher and I was behind him and at last we got his colleague out of the office. He was calm but at that time i get to know he is brave also.

So I want to say that we all have some good and bad qualities which we dont know. But if we get to know this thing we should work it out in a good way. And believe me the people around us will be more loving towards us by our this kind of gesture.  We should help other to make their life good. As their a saying helping hands are greater than the praying lips.

After a long gap at the evening

It’s the story about the evening where I was at the adda, our old place where we all friends meet at the evening. And we all enjoy the evening, we have fun with each other. Every evening we go to a place near the bus stand off our town, and there at that particular area we use to roam and have our evening snacks. So it’s the story of the very first evening of mine of this season.

I went for the evening walk with by nephew, my neighbor. The day was Sunday, and I had made plans to have some snacks at the evening after the walk, and so I take my nephew with me. At the park I had completed six rounds, there lincon had also came, and my nephew was not visible in the dark, as he is very naughty, always going here and there. I asked lincon to look for him. And then after sometime we got him. And then after the walk we came back to the bus stand area which we call our adda. And there we went to the kalia’s fast food centre. I was hungry, and I was about to eat everything kalia made. I was in super mood of eating. And we called manas, he was just coming out from his home by the time we call him. And then manas reached to the kalia’s centre. And we have ordered soup first and then egg roll and the manchurion.

 And by the time kalia was preparing the soup, manas was playing with my nephew, he was asking nephew about the sports and the schools about his academic. And nephew was answering everything very nicely, actually my nephew is very shy among the strangers and it was the first time he was with my friends. He already know lincon, we have lunch together at the kasturi. So he was familiar with lincon, he calls him doctor uncle. Manas was having a good time teasing sabak, if you are wondering this is the name of nephew.  And they were laughing and giggling.  Lincon said see the boy, if he will be with alok for some more months he will be like healthy as alok. I said no no no don’t blame me, he is not becoming like me but I am becoming like him, and we all laughed.  And then the soup was ready and I and manas brought the soup, and we were having the soup sitting on our bike. We were looking at the peoples how they are going here and there, and we were enjoying our evening, and after the soup was over we have the egg roll and manchurion, lincon was having the manchurion and I sebak and manas were having the egg roll. And we were enjoying every bite of it.

And then a girl with her friend in the scooty came, I saw them and told my friends that wow very nice girls, the girl riding is beautiful. And manas after watching her told me ohh shit alok she is the girl man, whom we were used to see while walking to the Mahanadi bridge,  and I was like no yaar, really, shit. And I had an image of her with me at that time. Where she gone lets go and watch her, then I look at every possible distance from me, and then I found out that they were having the dosa, next to the kalia’s fast food centres. And we had notice that they had parked their bike just 3- 4 bikes away from us. I asked my nephew to go with manas and make sure that it’s the bike they have come with, and when we were sure that this was the bike, nephew said lets go and take out all the air from that bikes tyre, lets puncture it. And I was like ohh my god you are going hard on this boy. No we are not going to do such things, just look at them they are your aunts. And we burst out in laughter. And after sometime we have completed our snacks and we moved on after paying the bill.

And after having the roll I asked nephew what will he eat and he told anything, so I asked him if he is interested in having gupchup, and he said yes. And then we headed towards the gupchup stall. And we all had gupchup, there we had fun I was taking a gupchup from nephew and he caught me and he asked me to keep the gupchup, and everyone there laughed at me, that I was caught by a small boy. There we had gupchup of 50 rupees. And then we decide to eat the chat mudhi, and we went to the hospital line, and there we had the chat mudhi, we all had one plate of chat mudhi, it was awesome in taste. There also I was messing with my nephew and there also he was not letting me to take anything from his plate. And at last we went to the soda centre, I had the soda of pudina taste which was my fav all the time, lincon and manas had their choices and nephew had also his own unique choices. And after having that our evening came to an end.

So this was the awesome evening of mine. Enjoyed a lot with friends and nephew.          

A Long Time Crush

Today on 19^th oct  while I was out with my friends I saw a girl walking with her mother. And to my surprise she was the girl from my college whom I used to like. She was my crush for many years, and still is. I admire her the most. I was not able to control my emotions by seeing her and knowing that she is the girl. She is the one of the most beautiful girl I ever met in my life. So here’s what happened.

So I was at home and I was about to go to my friends, but before I go I want to make sure that the vendor from whom I wanna have egg roll and chilli chicken had come today. So I called manas and he asked me where I am and he told me to go there as they were having dosha. And I asked whether the vendor from whom we use to eat egg roll has came or not, and he replied that he hasn’t came today. I was sad, but had to go. Then within 5 minutes I was there with my friends, there we had dosha. I, bipra, sachi and manas were there. we called bala to join us, he said he will be join us within 15 minutes. And then I told my friends that I will have a chicken pakoda. At that mean time my phone rang and it was a call from my friend. And I was busy talking with him.

While talking with my friend on phone, I asked manas to order a plate of chicken pakoda from the other vendor, and he called me and gave me a plate of pakoda, and I had a sit on the chair nearby kept my plate on the other chair sat there and was having the pakoda while having conversation with my friend. At that time bala had also came and they all were busy in their conversation. And I was busy eating the pakoda and talking my friend over phone. And while talking I suddenly saw a girl in the blue salwar walking with her mom on the other side of the road, my eyes were stuck on this girl. A beautiful girl, with the lovely hairstyle and with great killer eyes. And all of a sudden she just turns towards me and looked at me, we share a glimpse of each other, I was continuously looking at her, I liked her. But I think she was looking at me and trying to recall me where she had seen me. And for a moment I was also in doubt that I know this girl. And I have seen her somewhere. The girl again look back to me and this time I was already looking at her. And when our eyes just got hit by one another she took off her eyes from me and looked forward. And then I finished my pakoda and came near my friends.

And when I joined them they all asked me did you saw deepakshi ? and I was like what ? really ? where ? and I was looking here and there looking for her. Then bala told me that she just went that way, and he just showed me the direction. And when I saw I was surprised and I was like ohh what…. really…. Is she the girl in blue dress, and they all said yes…. And I was like shit yaar…. what a fool I am…. how I was not able to recognize her…. Then we were all discussing about her. Bala asked me if I am interested to go that way as he has some work also at a shop. And I was so lost in her. I told them she is looking so much beautiful than before. I am again falling for her. I had a huge crush on her at the college time. And they all laughed at me. They asked me name a name who was not your crush. And I was like no its not like that. I really like her, and now also I have feelings for her. I was the only one to have a huge crush on her, I said smiling. And bala said he also had feeling for her. And I was like no yaar its not done, why it always happen that the girl I have crush on is the same girl u have a crush with after a while. We had some fight also for her, and we laughed.

While we were just making a plan to go there to check her whereabouts, that very moment she came back. And this time I was watching her straight, face to face. And I turned up towards my friends and told them yaar I am gone, she is looking so beautiful yaar. And again I was looking back to her and this time she was also looking at me. And I was feeling butterflies in my stomach, I was feeling so happy. She looked at me twice and I was smiling only. Looking at her gave me the feelings of the college days. And after she was gone, I was also gone. My heart was not in its place it was gone with her. I told my friends I again fall for her. She was looking like an angel, all the colleges incidents were playing in the flash back.  This girl was the girl whom I liked from the college days. The cutest and beautiful girl of the college time. I was totally mesmerized by her, the simple nature of her and the sweet voice of her.

This girl is the sweetest and awesome girl i ever known. She is a classy one, I like her the most. The feeling for her is still alive in me. I respect her a lot. She is as beautiful as ever. I wish her all the best in her life.

Still thinking about her……..      

Death in my Arms

Few years back, one day I was going to balangir for some work, and that time I was going there by bus. As I love travelling by bus at that time. And I was a bit late arriving at the bus stand so all the seat was occupied. And then I asked the conductor to give me a seat and he replied he will do so. And then I had to stand there and wait for the passenger to get down so that I could take their place. At the time of leaving the stand the bus was full packed. There was no place to stand also. I was just standing near a seat holding the luggage carrier which was just above the seat.

Just when the bus left the town an old lady stepped into the bus from nearby village, I think she was of 65 to 70 age. Somehow she managed to come to the middle part of the bus, I was watching her. She was asking each and everyone  sitting in the seat to give her a seat as she cant stand long, and  she had to go 25 kms, which bus will take 45 minutes to cover. But no one was listening to her. All the passengers including men and women were ignoring her, and asking her to step aside. All were looking at her with a hate look, even some of them asked the old lady not to touch them. Slowly she came near me I was facing the window, and the old lady was just behind me in the middle. I asked her where is she going and she told me about her, that she is not well and wanna sit but no one’s willing to give her a seat. Then I told her to wait for some time then she will get a seat.

As it was winter most of the windows were closed due to the cold breeze, they left very small space for air to pass through the bus.  And the crowd was not lessening but increasing by the stops. I was suffocating, facing problem in breathing so I longed towards the window, got some fresh air and then I was relieved. And then I saw this old lady was having some problem she was not looking fine. I asked her if she is ok and she told that she is not feeling well, and she was facing problem in talking with me. I asked her to take rest there was a pole I told her to hold it tight and stand she will be fine soon. And then I was again to my position. And i was looking outside the window enjoying the view.

Then suddenly I felt someone leaning on my back and I turn back to see who’s there and I saw the old lady was leaning closing her eyes. I hold her and asked her to open her eyes. And she was breathing heavily and by watching this in no time I understood that she is suffocating there. And then suddenly I asked the man sitting near the window to open it. The man got irritated and he told me that he will not open the window, its very cold there. In anger I told him this lady is dying here just open the fucking door. By hearing my voice he opened it. The air was now blowing in towards us but still the old lady was not in her sense. And suddenly she fell down and I was like oh my god what had just happened. I got down to her, her eyes were still closed, I was very nervous at that time I didn’t know what to do. I was shivering and I was frightened also.

That very moment I asked the bust to stop, I shouted stop the bus. This lady is dying here. And when the passenger near me saw the old lady in serious condition they also shouted to stop the bus and just seconds after the bus stopped. I searched by bag and took the water bottle and then hold the lady in my arms and asked her to wake up. But she wasn’t hearing anything from me, she was just breathing very slowly. And suddenly her eyes were closed. I told no no no no no… wake up wake up but she didn’t respond, I noticed that she was not breathing, I was totally shocked and again I tried to wake her up, I take out the bottle and pour some water into my palm and sprinkle it in her face but still she didn’t respond. And then I checked her pulse it was not working. And then I was like no this can’t be happen here, with me, the old lady was gone, she was no more. She died of suffocation. Then i ask some men to help me taking the old lady outside the bus. Two men helped me I taking the old lady outside the bus. All passengers got down the bus and gathered around us.  

And all the people were then expressing their condolence. Aww the old lady, poor lady, such a misfortune. All were showing their sympathy towards her. I was just sitting next to the dead old lady. And by hearing these kind words of the people I got wild, I shouted at the people to stop this nonsense, stop this fake sympathy. If you would have given her a seat she would be alive by now. She died of suffocation, she was not able to breathe and that’s why she is no more in this world. My anger was so high I blamed all of them for he death. I told them you all are responsible for her death. And tears came out of my eyes. It was the first time someone died in my arms. I was so helpless that I couldn’t help her out. I was so much in sorrow.  

P.S:- So please help the old people, give them seat in bus or train. You may help a soul to live in this world. You never know what’s in the future, and tomorrow a day will come when you will also grow old. 

Amazing AVISTA

This name is so very special to me and the person who owns this name is even more special to me. By seeing this name a broad smile occurs on my face. This person has a significant role in my life. She helped me through the time of my anguish. She is my friend from last 3 years. We met through the internet, became friends and the friendship is going on and on. So here is the story about her.

So we met on facebook 3 years ago, yes one more friend from facebook. Just 4 to 5 days before I got the request I had unfriend something like 500 people from my account. i had added so many people in my account. i was new to fb before and in excitement i had added so many people. And suddenly i got her request which i wasn't expected. And when I saw her profile I didn’t recognize her and I thought she wud have send me req randomly. And then I started chatting with her, she wasn’t from odisha, she was from other state, and slowly I came to know about her that she had completed graduation degree and is pursuing her post graduation.  

I asked her about movies and she said she don’t love romantic or action movie, she only loves horror movies, I was like oh my god horror like the grudge and the ring, it was like awkward to me as usually girls like to see romantic movies but this girl here is totally different. I asked her hobbies and she said studying, and I was like what ? really ? study… reading books ? who says that these days, only crazy people have the hobby of reading. The I asked hesitatingly by any chance are you the topper of your class ? and the answer I got from her was yes, she was the topper of her batch, and at that very moment I felt like isko jaldi se unfriend kar do (lets unfriend her right now), as I and the brilliant kinds doesn’t really get along. And she said that she is waiting for the classes to start very anxiously and I was like what ? who waits for the class ? I never wait for the class to open I just prayed to god not to open the classes.  

And then we used to chat on daily basis not for long time but yeah we chat for sufficient time. We talk to each other most of the time on afternoons and evenings or night. And then one evening she asked me about the plan of the evening and if I m going anywhere. And I looked at my legs and was like kahan jaun main aisi halat mein (where wud I go in this situation), as at that time I was not fit, I mean I was suffering from arthritis and a skin disease called psoriasis. I was not able to walk properly coz I was experiencing pain on my both legs, knees and ankle joints. After knowing this she felt very sad for me, and who wud not. But I felt bad for this, as I was not telling anyone about my condition, I didn’t wanted everyone to know my situation at that time.

One day she asked if I text or not, and I said yes and then we share our numbers. And after that we used to chat and n text and also talk on phone. And the first time I heard her voice, I was totally mesmerized, her voice was so sweet and so much of esteem. When we talk over phone I always said her that her voice is so good, she is so soft spoken. And there was one time when we used to talk at evening and on that day I fall asleep at the evening. And when the phone rings I woke up abruptly and was like huh…. Haan…. Where.… who….where is the phone and after following the ringtone I pick the call. I asked her not to call at this time as I was sleeping but she forgot this 3 to 4 times.

Time goes on and by the time our relation had grown strong, we have become best of friends. And this one day I had asked her to be my gf. And she told me that its not possible as I am very far away from her. She said love does not happen only by chating or talking over phone. She said she don’t wanna hurt me, not even 1%. She likes me but cant love me. She said lets the friendship goes on. And I agreed to her and understand her emotions.

I like her and appreciate her friendship towards me. She is so precious to me. She is an angel. She helped me through the time of my suffering.  The time when I was so much in pain and grief she was among some friends who helped me get through it. It was so difficult for me to go through my sorrow without her and my friends. She always asked about my health every day. She advised me to ignore something to eat and to take care of me. She is the only person who is with me till now, and in these days yes she was not here with me physically but mentally she was always with me, supporting me, encouraging me, endured me and boosted me.

Whenever I was in pain and if I ask her to chat with me she never said no, she always had time for me. Even if her exam were on, she managed to give me at least 15 minutes and we chat. She had motivated me, there was time when I was low in my life and sad coz of my unwell health and so depressed she was the person to actuate me. Without her I wud have lost the hope of getting better she had always encouraged me and she used to say don’t lose hope and have faith in god he will heal you very soon. And she was with me morally now when again I was I pain, and this time also she helped me a lot. This time I had the same problem with some more complications. And in my 5 months of suffering she was with me giving me moral support.   

sometimes I missed her for not being with me. I have always wanted a friend like her to be with me. Though she was with me morally but then again a friend who is with you giving you support in person is a different scene. And I wanted her to be with me, but then the world is not a wish granting factory that whatever we wish wud come true. But this girl is amazing, she had tried her best to make me feel good and comfortable.

So this was all about my gorgeous angelic fantastic and wonderful friend. Whom I never wanna lose. She had an incredible personality with an amazing smile and the beautiful pair of sparkling eyes. Her smile is the most beautiful thing you will see in this world. And yes don’t look into her eyes coz then you might be losing you in her. She is such an attractive person. So kind and down to earth.

So here I am ending this, I wish you all the success in your future my deary, hope you get everything what you wished for. God bless you and love u so much my deary. Take care and always keep smiling.

Frustrated Girls

This is a blog related to all the girls, the different type of girl. The type of girls whom I don’t like at all. These are the type of girls who don’t interact with me or the boys from years and who think we are bad boys to talk with. Its about the girls, what they think about us and here I will be writing about them.

So here is a friend of mine named Jyoti Prabha Sen. We were good friends in my diploma college but now a days we don’t interact with each other often. But yes I do like her as my friend. She is a different kind of girl I have known this far. She don’t talk to boys as she hate us, but we manage to have a chat with her. We were only among some few boys with whom she was ok talking with. I don’t know why she always hate boys, she always says boys are not good, boys always betray they are never trustworthy. And when I tell her that JP, I m also a boy yaar and I am not like that, and she used to say when time will come you will also show your real colours. And I was like what the hell yaar, I am talking to her so nicely and she is saying me that I will show my true colours, what am I, a chameleon ?  how can she say this to me ? I was a bit disappointed at that time. I told my self achha hua ki she is gone or else she would have faced my rage.

And then one day JP and I were chating through sms, and she told me that I am roaming a lot with my friends here and there. Doing masti day and night. And I replied yes I am doing. And how did you know that I am doing all this as you are not in social media. And she said I have my spys around you. I was like ok that’s great then. And she said you have any work to do or not, any time you and your friends were outside the town or moving, partying in the restaurant or at the dhaba, bridges, hills, you are roaming outside till 11.30pm at night or more than that also. Jab dekho party party party, be religious also sometimes, kabhi god ko bhi yaad kar liya kar. And by seeing her msg I was like what the hell is this. Is she gone mad or what. I never had expected this type of msg from her.

The next day I met my friends and told them about this incident. And they all laughed by hearing this. I asked them who told JP about our party. And they all denied, and then we have our doubt on a friend who lives near JP’s house he must have told her. I told my friend abe wo itna chid chid kyun ho rahi thi be. Hum log ghumein phire  kuch bhi karein uska kya jata hai be. Why does she bother about us. We will do whatever we want and we cannot make happy everyone by our deeds. My friend asked me what did you said to her . I told nothing, I didn’t replied anything to her, and why should I defend myself, who is she, have I committed crime or what that now she will decide I am innocent or what. And I don’t understand this ki why she was saying me all this thing. And I told my friend she must be jealous of us. Yes she is jealous as she cant enjoy like we do.  And I told she is frustrated yaar. She is a depressed soul. And by hearing this my friends burst out of laughter. And one of my friend told me don’t say like that yaar she is your friend. And I said do hell with the friendship, kaun sa friendship kahan ka friendship. She never liked me, shirf majburi mein hi baat karti thi as we were her mates. And if we were an outsider she would never have looked at us also. I now why she is jealous, she don’t get time to enjoy that’s why. As she is doing a job and she go from angul to km nagar and its two hous journey, jayegi 2 hours and aayegi 2 hours, phir ghar ka kaam kar kar ke thak jayegi and so jayegi. She had no time left to enjoy her life. And in contrast we are enjoying like a dog going anywhere we want, partying the night. And she is looking at our pics , we change our dp once in every two to three days. And by seeing this she must be turning into a burning coal. Yup she is a frustrated soul 100%. And we all laughed.

And this one day we were talking among us in our friend circle about girls. And a friend of mine told me that during his period of 3 years of graduation he never spoke to any girls of his class, and the best thing is all the girls know him very well from childhood. And now they don’t even look at us. I was like why, why they don’t talk to us. He told me that don’t know yaar what is happening to them or what they think of themselves. I told them no yaar this should not happen with us. Look we know these girls from so many years now, they were our classmates in our colleges and now after so many years they wont talk to us. Why ? what they thing of us, are we a criminal or what.  And then he told me about the incident which had happened just few days earlier, my friends were usually  meet at the evening infront of the tarini mandir, rourkela. There is a sitting place  they all meet there at evening used to talk have fun tell late evening. And this day they were standing infront of a shop and that girl came who was our friend, she saw them and they also looked at her but instead of talking she walked away from the from a distance. And I was like what the hell yaar, shit man really ? whay was she behaving like this yaar, are we gonna rape her or what ? jo humse bina mile hi itni dur se chali gayi. Or she is thinking that talking to boys is not good. Or she think of us all as bad boys. And then I looked towards the temple and folded my hands and said thank you god, for keeping us away from this type of girls. Thank you so much. And my friends were laughing at my words. 

And then I turned towards my friends and was a bit aggressive, achha hua yaar jo hum aisi ladkiyon k dost nahi hain. These girls are not good for us at all. Always suspecting the boys, and they gave us a look, which makes us feel like a criminal. And that’s why these girls don’t have boyfriends. Aur kaun inse pyar karega re, always behaving like they are only the good one in this world. And rest all of us are hungry of them. I want to ask them ki sala tum log achha ban ke kya ukhaad liye be, you don’t have social life or friends also. All girls dreams of having their prince charming, to shirf dream karne se kuch milega kya, you have to look for them in the outer world na. And if you look all boys with the same eyes then how can you find one good boy for you. And after marriage also they cant keep their hubby happy coz they don’t have the knowledge how to make their hubby happy both mentally and physically, as they don’t have male friends their entire life. And aage kya hoga the hubby will be not pleased by the girl and he will look for love outside. And this will lead to extramarital affairs, which is happening very actively in our society. And this is a threat to our culture and society. And if by chance we call these girls in the middle of the road they will look like us in such a way ki sala khud ko guilt feel hone lagega ki sala hum rapist hain aur ye hamein kaise dekh rahi hain ki mujhe jane do please, my god its so terrible yaar, chahe aap kitne hi ache ho they wil make you feel ki aap rapist hain. Unke liye every boy who talks to them outside is of bad character and always try to take advantage of them.

And then there is another type of girls who have dual character, in their hometown they will live like they know nothing about life and when they enter in a big city they enjoy the alcohol with their boyfriends. Enjoyed the life their fullest. Small town like our sonepur mein aapse koi baat bhi nai karega, and bahar ja kar ke they will became shameless, wo log khud tumse aa k baat karengi ki are yaar kaisa hai tu, and for a second you will be confuse ki  who is this dazzling girl, and when you recognize her you will be like what the hell sala ye to apni dost hai be. And you will feel like sala apne town mein to aise behave karti hai jaise she is the most innocent girl hai world ki but yahan pe to bilkul uska opposite chal raha hai yaar.

Well I don’t wanna make girls feel bad for me, or I don’t wanna hurt their feelings. I am not saying that all girls are like this only. I have many girl friends, and they are awesome. They are the best persons in the world for me. I have a very good relation with them. Its just some girls whom I just don’t like. And if I had hurt any girls feelings then I apologies to her. 

Remembering a Girl whom i liked Once

I was with my friend on my morning walk. And we were discussing about something and suddenly we started talking about girls and the topic came to the girl who once lived near my house. And by hearing her name I was exhilarated. And the memories of her came in front of my eyes.

The name of the girl was Rasika Singh. We were both in same class but in different schools. I know her from class 10^th. As I was new to this place I was not interacting with boys more. And gradually when my school was over and I was into the college. And the same girl came to the tuition i was in. and to see her I was like wow now she is with me in the same tuition. I was so happy to see her. I had never talked to raasi as I had no connection with her, she was from different school and I was from another. We were just neighbor and nothing else. We never interacted.

And in college also we had same subjects so we were in the same class, and as the boys get to know that she and I live in same locality they started teasing me. As we go to class at the same time we reach to the college at the same time, and by seeing me my friend used to ask me wow you came to class together and I used to  say no its not like that I was just behind her. And in the tuition also the same thing happening. I used to sit next to her and I feel good about it. It wasn’t love or like that but yes I do like her. And eventually I went on liking her so much. The problem was we didn’t interact much or the liking would have turned out to love someday.

There was this one day I went to her home to take some notes as I was absent the day before. And then I talked to her for I think about 1 hour or so. And there at her house I noticed her for the first time. For the first time was looking her into her eyes directly and talking to her one on one. Her smile was making me fall for her. She had a very nice smile. And I noticed one thing more that when she laughs an extra teeth from the canine teeth came up, and this makes her look very beautiful. And her big eyes were so attractive. That one hour was the best time I ever had with her. She is an amazing human being and very good at heart.

We had some wonderful moments also. We had this singing thing going on our tuition and first I sang a song and then after she sang a song. And that time I know that what an beautiful singer she is, she has an amazing voice. She sings really well. I was totally mesmerized by her voice. And we were into this puja celebration also, we used to decorate the room day before the puja. An there we used to talk also. I feel so good while talking to her. She always talked so nicely to me. We never had a good conversation or a friendly one we always had a formal conversation. And yes it doesn’t mean that she doesn’t mean to me anything, even now I treat her as my good friend.

There was a phase where I was like about to fall in love with this raasi. Yes there was this time when I was like going crazy about her. But then I make up my mind not to do something like this. And somewhere in my heart I also know that she was also started liking me. I don’t know how but I had some signs. We used to look at each other. And we share smile also. Yes we were not interacting too much or talking with one another, but I think we shared a special kind of relation, a pure kind of relation. One we were in a marriage party and I was there serving the desert. And raasi was there and she came to me and took the cup without looking at me. And when she was done with the desert she threw it in the bin and was standing there at a place. I was serving the desert and after finishing I was just looking at the people and suddenly I saw raasi looking at me, and all of a sudden I take of my eyes from her. And looked towards the desert and then slowly I had a look at her and she was still looking me. And that moment I was also looking at her and the eye contact was going on for like 30 seconds. And then a man came and asked me for the desert and I had given him the cup. And then I again looked for raasi, I didn’t find her but then after some time I found her at the entrance gate and I thought she is going to leave. But then that happened which I have not imagined, then she turn towards me and was looking for me, and in between us a aunty was standing so she came aside and was looking at me. And this time I didn’t take off my eyes from her, I was continuously looking at her, I thought of waving at her, but I didn’t. I just smiled and she also smiled as a reply. I was like wow raasi is looking so beautiful. And I was totally into her. And then her friends came and took her off.

And as of now, the present day, raasi is married . and have a kid also. And she is happy in her married life. We never spoke or I don’t have any contact of her. I always treat her as my good friend, n will treat her like this till the end. She is a wonderful person I ever known. I wish her a great life in the future.

So this was the girl I liked once.        

FURIOUS 7

Just saw the movie fast and furious 7. As we all know It was the last movie of Paul Walker.  This movie was released almost one and half year after the death of Paul. The movie was full of action packed adventure and it had redefined the law of physics. It was just an awesome movie to watch. You will be thrilled to see the actions of the movie. You would not have thought that what these stars are doing of going to do. And your mind will be blown out by the action scenes. A fully dhisum dhasum movie with so much of adventure and excitement.

And about the Paul Walker, what to say. He was just awesome. He died in a car accident leaving us all. And the movie was at that time was completed only half of it.  But his brother cody walker walkes in and had done the role of Paul, and he did it very nicely. Its an emotional movie for all of us who like Paul. Without paul the movie franchise is so much incomplete, its like a major part is missing in the movie. And if the movie is made further parts m damn sure it will be no fun watching it with no Brain O’Conner. He was the life of the fast and the furious.

When I heard the news of Paul’s death I was shocked  and I searched the internet and saw the news and I was so distressed. I feel very bad for him. As I loved him in the movie series and wanted to see his coming movie. I was like in a very sad state, felt very sad, I just prayed to god that please make this news a fake one. Please don’t take away paul from us. Just make a miracle and make paul alive again. But when I saw it in the news and in the internet in details. The car accident was so severe and lethal. And then I was convinced that he is not coming back now.

And now when I saw the movie Furious 7 and at the end how vin diesel had paid tribute to paul, tears were in my eyes while watching the song ‘see you again’. I was so emotional at the time. This movie is so very special for me. As it’s the last movie of one of my most fav actor. While the song was playing all the previous movies clipping was showing, and I was remembering all the things that had happened, from the first movie to the last one. How he met mia and dom and how he get into the friend circle of dom and from then they worked together, together they had many memories they had done many adventure. They had taken the cars from a running train and jumped over the bridge, had made the rio city on fire, messed up with the great drug dealer, the tank incident, the airplane crash.  Surviving the bus accident, fighting with tony jaa, and jumping from the airplane with the cars. All they did it together.

My eyes were full of tears till the last scene. I got emotional at the end.

PAUL you will always remain in my heart as a wonderful memory.

Rest in Peace.

My Black T- Shirt

This is about a t-shirt which I had got for free with my Samsung grand mobile. It’s a reebok t-shirt. Its been two years and I am still wearing the tee. I love that T. its so soft and I feel so comfortable wearing it. It has become my favorite t shirt. I wear it everywhere I go. Like if we were going to dinner, or to some distance place or just to have snacks or to just roaming around the town, you will see me wearing the black t shirt.

As you can see the picture its of the time when the t shirt was new, the name reebok is clearly visible there on the left side of the shirt. My facebook account is full of pics with this black t shirt. Whether it’s a small occasion or a big  I am always in this shirt. The time was like if I step outside my house for 5 minutes or 5 hours I was always wearing the black t shirt. As it was easy to put on and also to put off too.  I am in love with this t- shirt. It has witnessed many things like the winter of phulbani district, the bone chilling cold of the place where I was doing job in the phulbani, the sugarcane juice place where we did the grinding with a long log, the amazing parties at kasturi, the evening time pass at the adda looking at the peoples, the balangir trip, the sambalpur trip. Cant go through the details here, its confidential.

And now you can see the pic where the reebok sign is almost gone. I am still wearing it now when I go outside. To the banks, of friends house anywhere. And its been so long wearing this t shirt that now my friends have started teasing me with this. They say do whatever you want to but don’t wear that t shirt.  Ha ha ha ha ha and I am like I still like this, I wont leave it until its damaged or cut by the mouse or it tears. And now its all fine just the sign has gone. It always happens with me, one thing I like I wont let it go till it come to its worst condition and then also I don’t throw it I used it as a rough piece of cloth used it to clean my bike.

And now few days before when bala had came we decided to go to kasturi the restaurant for a party. And I was instructed that I shud wear the black t shirt. Or else we will not go to the party. And that time I was wearing a blue t shirt and I suddenly changed it with the black one. And we went to the hotel but it was closed all the hotel were closed so we went to a roadside dhaba which was like 10 kms away from the town and we had enjoyed a lot there.

So this was about my black t shirt.   

Broadband Connection

Its about the incident where I had planned to take a broadband connection, and how I had face problems while doing this, and still I am facing the problems. As I have not got the connection yet. So here whats happened.

From last 4 days I am being so annoyed by this broadband thing. As I have gone many times to the bsnl office and told them about my problems of the connections. So here it is from the starting. So this one day I had decided to take a broadband connection and I went to bsnl office with my neighbor bhaiya. And I reached the office at 4pm and then I asked the officer there about how to apply for the connection. And he gave me a form and asked me to fill it up, and also mentioned that today it cant be happen as its already 4pm and the cash counter was also closed. And I asked him about the cash counter and he told me that the counter closed by 3.30 pm. So he asked to come by tomorrow. And I was so much happy as the next day I was going to use the broadband connection which is super fast.

The next day again I went to the office sharp at 10.30am in the morning with all the documents ready. I was so excited that ohh yeah baby today no one can stop me, I need no one, I am the king as my broadband was to be connect to my number. I was so happy at that moment and I went there with the bhaiya who lives near my house. And so we reached the office and when I reached there I directly went to the officers room and there what I am seeing that the door was closed and I was like what the hell why the room is lock, and I was shocked, my happiness was vanished and then I was worried, I needed the connection that day itself my face was frowny at that time. And the I came to the cash counter which was open I asked the man sitting there when will the sir came and he told he must be coming now. I went inside the other rooms also where lots of wire were there and were connected to many circuits or something like that. Then I sat outside the door I waited for 15 minutes it was already 11am but that sir hadn’t came then bhaiya told me to sit inside and so we came to the cash counter area and sat there at the bench. I saw the time it was already passed 11 and was thinking why didn’t the sir had came till now. Its so late by now. And after more 20 minutes of waiting sir had came and then I went to his room and gave him the form which I had filled. And then he said it will be done by the evening and  he asked me to leave the modem there.

And I had done so. And I came back to home. Here I was happy, it was late but then also I forgot all the things and was happy about the thing that the connection will be given by this evening and I will enjoy the internet after that. And I was waiting for the 3.30pm and then I will call the ofc again and confirm for the modem. And when it was 3.30pm I went to the bsnl ofc and there sir had given my modem and told me to wait for some time he will send a man from the office to connect the modem to my computer. Then I told him that I know how to connect the modem to the computer. Then he said ok the I will give the connection from here you wait for some time after you connect the modem ok. And I came home happily and a bit sad also that my connection getting so long. And again I had waited till 4.45pm and I again called the ofc and enquired about the connection, and then that sir told that the staff were not getting a port so it cant be done today and tomorrow its strike so the office will be closed and then it will be done the day after tomorrow. And then after hearing this I was like so sad. My face was like a pale blue berry(jamu). I had no other choices but to wait for the day to open the office. So I had waited till the day it was open.

So after the strike the next day I went to office after 11 am as I was aware that the sir wud not have reached the ofc at time. And when I went there I was fully sure and had hope that today I will get the connection anyhow. So I was standing inside at his office and then suddenly after typing something at his computer he gave me a form and asked me to give it to the man sitting at the next room. And when I hold that form I saw it was mine. And he told that he will come with me. And so I went to the other room and sir came there and told the man sitting there to get a connection to me anyhow today itself as tomorrow is holiday. And I  got confused holiday ? tomorrow ? how ? what holiday ? and after the sir gone I asked the man to give me a connection as quick as possible. Then the man replied me that yes it will be done today itself, he assured me and he added another man was not there and he had gone to leave his kid to the school and he will be coming soon and then they will start the work. And I came back after hearing that.

And after I came back home I was so pissed off. I was so much frustrated. I had lost the hope of getting the connection today also. lost percentage was 90% and the hope was only 10%. And still I was waiting for the connection, I had connected the modem to my computer and was waiting for the connection to come. And then it was 12.30pm already. I asked my father to go to the ofc and see what has happened. He went to the office there they had asked me to wait till 2^nd half. And father came back and told me that he will go there in 2^nd half. So I waited again. Father went to the ofc at 3.30pm there the ofc man called in my landline number and asked about the modem which light is on and which is not. He called many times. When I got fed up I asked father to come back. And he came back. I was getting call from the ofc in the interval of 15 to 20 minutes. But nothing happening. And this day also I lost the hope of getting the connection. And father again went to the ofc at 5 pm and there sir was also trying I got call from the ofc I told them everything is fine here except the internet. They told my father to go back to home and when the net will come it will automatically connect to you computer. And I waited till 6pm and then I was confirmed that today also I cant get the connection. And tomorrow is holiday. I was again sad. I was not interpreting that if the higher authority had given you the orders for the connection then why I m not getting the connection. Is this for the lower staff who want some bribe from me. If I wud give him some rupees then only he will give me the connections. But why shud I will give him the money as I had already paid for it. Then I was angry on our system which was full of corruption and was like this country is gone. Its fully corrupted from the root level. But then after some time when I got relaxed I thought that its not always about the corruption and money, what if there was really a problem in the office. And then I made up my mind was cool.

Today is the holiday day. And tomorrow again I will go to the bsnl ofc and ask them to give me the connection. And there is no other options left with me. I am not the angry type or I will do this or do that give me the connection anyhow. So yes I am waiting for the day when I will get the connection and will surf the internet from my computer.

And yes I should remind you all, today is the day when ajay devgan had taken his whole family to the panji, for the satsang and he came back on 3^rd of oct.

So this is how I am being pissed off by not getting the broadband connection.

Hope to get the connection soon.